Reading and writing

Having time to yourself, you get to do a lot of things that you have neglected to do for a long time. One of the things that I used to do a lot was read, I also used to write a lot as well. We know that I am doing ok with the writing part as evidenced by this blog. I am also writing other, more private things - these are things that I need to think about and express. I hope that these are things that I can feel comfortable sharing with others in time, but I'll just have to know that the time is right.

I've been reading books and websites and blogs in search of some answers. The funny thing is I stumbled across something from a couple years back that is a little reflective of my current situation. There are similarities, but thankfully I can see significant differences as well. I can see a glimmer of hope that everything is not lost. I know that things will take time, and that with time, things will happen naturally. I don't want to push so hard that something breaks and I lose what opportunities I do have. I don't want to think, however, that change happening naturally doesn't do so without a little nudge from those looking for the change. We have to be in control of our own destinies. Sure things will happen as they are meant to, but that doesn't mean that we are merely spectators.

I am in the process of building up myself for me, and making me stronger so that I can accomplish the thing that I want to. I know that it is a tough road to travel down, and a long one as well, but I am doing better and I feel that progress is being made. I feel good about myself for the first time in a long time, and I like that feeling.