Lessons Learned

The glove compartment isn't accurately named
And everybody knows it.
So I'm proposing a swift orderly change.

Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
And all I find are souvenirs from better times
Before the gleam of your taillights fading east
To find yourself a better life.

-License and Registration, Death Cab for Cutie

I can relate to that...the song goes on to tell the tale of faded love and the process of moving forward, dealing with memories, etc. Sounds a lot like my life - I think Death Cab is going to be my new favorite band, they seem to get me.

I'm still in the recovery stage, but I'm doing well and the lessons from all of this are really starting to sink in and take hold - for that I'm glad. I'm glad I'm able to take something positive away from this mess.

I sometimes wish these lessons could have been learned with someone who didn't mean as much to me, but honestly the learnings wouldn't have had the same impact. I realize now that it was important for me to learn these things by losing someone I truly cared about, but with whom there wasn't really much of a future, or so it would seem. I only realize these things now from a 30,000 ft view - I was too close to everything before. I still care about her and always will - I will be forever sorry and regretful for hurting her, but I am glad that she's happy now.

Every relationship I have had has been a little better than the previous. With that in mind I am extremely excited at the prospect of finally finding someone with whom I match in every way. For now, I'm just having fun and trying not to think about everything too much; I'm going back to the "go with the flow" version of me that people seemed to like so much.

Now I just need to convince people that they don't need to treat me with kid gloves anymore. Yes, I still think about the loss, but cut me some slack people, we were together for nearly 4 years! Alright, that should do it for now...

-laid back lessons learned jonathon