The First Days

Last night was a good night - I had a good dinner with friends. Sure I was a little nervous, who wouldn't be. At this point I'm drained physically and emotionally, but taking this step in my life has been good. I am still sad, I am still thinking about where things went wrong and why, but I'm also looking to the future. I don't feel as bad about it all as I did before, I still feel emotional, but not irrational. I still wear my heart on my sleeve, though.

Ultimately, I know that I am a good person, I am a giving person, I am a romantic person. I have my faults, who doesn't? But that doesn't mean that I am a bad person. I know what I need to do to improve those faults and I'm taking those steps now. I do feel bad for messing up in the past - I never intended to hurt anyone.

I am learning new things about myself every day and I feel that I am getting better. I am moving forward day by day - this is going to take time. I'm ready for it though, I'm ready to take some time and do things right this time.

-confident jonathon