Epiphany

Funny how you sometimes think that you are ready to do something, but then you quickly realize that you aren't. I've been thinking a lot over the past month and a half and especially in the past week and I've realized that the moments that make up our lives are often filled with precious transcendence and incredible meaning. But we can only fully take in and understand the experience when we are able to let go long enough to be suspended in the moment.

Maybe that’s one of our biggest problems, I know it has been for me. It’s so rare that we stop long enough to contemplate just what is going on in our lives to really take things in. To do this you have to surrender your agenda and put away your self-centeredness at least long enough to be open to a sometimes frightening and overwhelming unknown. It's ok to let go of everything we are holding on to in order to begin the process of understanding.

Letting go, however, doesn't mean stopping living, it doesn't mean giving up. We still have to take part in our own existence. We must still be willing to chase after what we believe in and often what we don’t understand. We have to have faith and trust in our lives.

But, knowing that when we finally admit we can’t do it all by ourselves, that we sometimes can't have influence over every aspect of our lives, and that it's ok to ask for help, then we will come to the answers we've been seeking. We will find what it is that we've been looking for.

...now I am ready.

-jonathon